So! Here I am! Divorced! And honestly, struggling pretty hard this week, but that's how it's been right along, one moment GREAT! the next lower than mud.
I have to say for all of you that do NOT yet have children, consider HARD the fact that half of y'all are destined for divorce and well frankly, it's a hell of a lot easier on everyone involved, if you don't have to involve a child in divorce. As horrible as I feel about what I've lost, I'm even more twisted up inside when I think that Zaria is now "a child of divorce". And yes I know, my therapist tells me to chill out about it that she's lucky to have me and that it's good Doug still sees her..but that's not enough for me.
Now she seems to be doing great...she loves being jetted back and forth and asks every night who is going to come get her, where are we going, what are we going to do? She's always loved being on the go. Good thing.
So pardon me while I take full advantage of this rainy day and my cold and be a bit of a hum bug. I like to think I've earned it!
Here you are strong, healthy, best Mama ever, beautiful, smart, funny and a wonderful generous friend. Hang in there my dear; I am not going to pretend I know how you feel but I know that time heals. And love heals, and we all love you so very much. Zari is tough just like her Mama, no worries. Hugs!
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